it wasnt so simple. and now ive read something that I feel she left for me to read, and i feel like jumping down the deepest trench. so few people understand the connection that two people can have, even if they never know each other's touch. this isnt a scar that's going to just heal. it's a hole that will remain bleeding forever. and when i close my eyes i can see all of the blood draining away, soon there wont be anything left. sleeping aids wont last the rest of my life.
i never wanted to stop at the peak, i wanted to walk the whole road together, because we may not have shared a romantic love anymore because the distance is too vast, but we did share something that so very few ever get to experience, a bond stronger than any other. the connection being severed has crippled me, and i dont know what to do.
im sorry for posting here again. i have no one else to talk to right now.