Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?
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Random Thoughts.....What are you thinking?
I'm extremely bad at asking things of others, or even accepting spontaneous manifestations. Scar once tried to buy me a bunch of ancient currency to finish my relic and we had a fight cause I didn't want it(and didn't take it in the end).
I think seha just likes to fight
(i can give you some alex!)
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Self-actualisation of goals is a personal thing and should be respected by others. Everyone's sense of self achievement differs for sure.
That being said, friends are friends too...and amongst real friends the desire to help springs from a sincere wish to help--without strings or obligations or expectations. The only hope is for that sense of "mudita" for someone they really care about. At least IMHO. I know and I understand. I did do the same and farm stuff in my own playtime for him when the situation was reversed.
I don't know, it maybe has to do with how I've always felt wronged everytime someone accused me of having things for chromosomes/looks/powerful dad rather than merit(I bet she got good grades cause she flirts with the professor; I bet she uses guys to get free drinks; I bet she got all that gear cybering with ls leaders..) I know it's wrong on my part to refuse a genuine good gesture, but I kinda feel the need to do everything I do in life on my own. ..have I mentioned before I'm a strict person? I'm difficult to handle and I'm aware. No, I understand...I have a hard time asking for RL help--trying to be 'tough' all the time and it extends into the game, too. Friends have to drag me insistently to things that benefit my own goals LOL.
But I've learned over time some friends are at nature "givers" ( I am too that way) and it's almost hurtful to push away their help, as it is an extension of who they are and their own values. To deny them that "mudita" is also in a way hurtful to friends. So I learned to compromise. :p
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I'm similar in a way, that I'd always be the first to help someone out, but would never ask someone else for help. My lack of relics in xi was mainly due to my lack of ambition, but in general I just found it more fun to help someone else make something than it was to make something for myself.
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Doctore's Grimoire
 Front Cover: Treuthe - Variation of Troth meaning faithfulness, fidelity, or loyalty The mark on the front cover appears to just be cosmetic as it is not a letter or number in the Eorzean version of text. Could possibly be a symbol for something else. Back Cover: Arcana - meaning secrets or mysteries. Numerall - No clue the google has nothing. Guessing maybe an old timey version of numeral.
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I woke up angry this morning. This anger wasn't directed at anyone I know personally, this anger was directed at this cheeky little ***...
 ...the Car Fox comes off as such a ***-blocker. And no, I greatly dislike fighting. I somatize and it makes me feel sick.
Valefor.Sehachan said: » I know and I understand. I did do the same and farm stuff in my own playtime for him when the situation was reversed. I don't know, it maybe has to do with how I've always felt wronged everytime someone accused me of having things for chromosomes/looks/powerful dad rather than merit(I bet she got good grades cause she flirts with the professor; I bet she uses guys to get free drinks; I bet she got all that gear cybering with ls leaders..) I know it's wrong on my part to refuse a genuine good gesture, but I kinda feel the need to do everything I do in life on my own. ..have I mentioned before I'm a strict person? I'm difficult to handle and I'm aware.  ? Anna Ruthven said: » ...the Car Fox comes off as such a ***-blocker. Jetackuu said: »
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Giggity.
Depends, but I guess that's a conversation for pm if you want, or else people panties get in a bunch again.
So I think I may have the flu, for the first time in 14~ years.
Not puking or anything, just feel blegh along with wanting to just sleep. I don't even know if there's a thermometer here for me to check my temperature... well time to go clean up and return these overdue books and then go *** at the financial aid office. *sprays Jet with disinfectant and runs away*
/sets Jet on fire
*makes s'mores*
*yawns*
What's on the agenda, folks? In his bunker I would guess.
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Shiva.Spathaian said: » *yawns* What's on the agenda, folks? Why do girls do this lol
 Bismarck.Dracondria said: » Why do girls do this lol |
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