Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

"This medicine makes me physically ill, I can't take it, I need something else"
"You just need time to adjust to it, the side effects will diminish"
"It's been months..."
"It'll go away eventually"
"Look, I spent the majority of my life on quite a number of medications, I know how they work, I know when something isn't going away, I need something else"
"We'll talk about it next time"

Last time I went. It's why I battled my insomnia, depression and high anxiety all on my own.. Lot of good it does to me to 'sleep normally' if the entire time I'm awake I'm just out of it and about 2 heart beats short of a coma, lot of good it does to be happy and anxiety free if the entire time I'm about 2 breaths short of puking and can't eat anything.

That whole 'we'll discuss this later' thing is the whole reason I have muscle spasms now.. Doctor that gave me a medicine said that one of the side effects could be long-term muscle spasms that may be permanent, I expressed concern, he told me that if I start to have them, I should tell him and we'll find something else.. So it happened, I told him, he said 'we'll keep an eye on it' 2 months later they hadn't gone away, and were only getting worse, discontinued the medicine. 10 years later I still have them.