Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

I want a frivolous hysterectomy. Getting your uterus surgically removed is not usually something people do for fun, and it's serious business to avoid certain cancers and so forth. But here's the thing-- I'm 26 years old (closer to 27, still young I know) and I don't have any motherly urges so far. I might think a kid here or there is cute, or might think it would be tolerable to be pregnant, but when I really start honestly thinking about it, I realize I'd much rather pass on that whole thing. The more I see and hear about other peoples' kids, even my own nieces and nephew (whom I do love), I think "yeah, not for me." I want to travel, see the world, go on a cruise, move to New Zealand, all without the stress of having to watch children instead scenery. I want to go to the movies whenever I darn well please without worrying about a babysitter. I want to spend money on other things, like a nice home or a vacation. And even if I do ever have a child, I'm not sure I'd like a biological one. I've batted around the idea of adopting a child if I ever want one since I was a young teen.

So.. in other words, every month my body prepares for a child, doesn't get one, literally rips the walls of my uterus down, makes me bleed for several days, causing crabbiness and pain all-round, all for something that I don't even want anyways.

Why not just remove the entire problem? Get a hysterectomy, take out the ovaries while we're at it, go through a quick menopausal period, recover, and live the rest of my young life without spending money on feminine sanitary junk and birth control? Without going through the agony of a useless monthly ritual for something I never wanted to begin with? Without the risk of ovarian cancer? Without having to worry about it at all? And if I change my mind later and decide I'd like a child-- adoption. Yes, I know adoption is expensive and difficult with lots of red tape and nonsense-- but it might be worth it to give an unwanted child a home anyways.

It'll never happen. No doctor in his/her right mind is going to perform a serious surgery on a young, healthy woman without a specific NEED of that surgery. And I don't have the money for it anyways. But wouldn't it be nice to be able to tell my system "Sorry dude, I've had just about enough of your monthly fun and games, I don't want any more of it, and I don't want what you are offering anyhow. GTFO."

Nobody will ever understand this. I bet if I told a single one of my family or friends that I even wished it, regardless of the fact that I don't plan to actually DO it, they'd get all fake-concerned and urge me strongly (read: demand) that I stop thinking about it because "what if I want kids someday?" ._. And what if I DON'T want kids some day (the more likely scenario lol) and I just go through all this pain, expense, and stupidity for the next twenty years of my life for nothing? Why does my family tend to think that I will change my mind on everything until I agree with the norm, if they just give me enough time? Why does it never occur to them that hey, I just might never want kids, get over it?

The last boss is a fetus